Don't date boys who Skate, cuz you might Suffocate

2009-09-20T01:00:00.002+08:00

go OR go away

2009-09-20T00:33:00.003+08:00

its saturday
and guess what
im HOME
yea its becoming typical

rainy morning
pouring afternoons
freezing nights

i have bangs on my head now
i finally got to talk to my idiots online
im real happy for sisi
i got to know that i brought a pest to sisi

lastly
i finally found the right place
for the party

2009-09-19T00:51:00.002+08:00

i have alot to say

today's afternoon time was insane
went macs with sisi
been naughty and went to make fun of ppl
told the acs barker boys that our sch girls
were taking their pics told them to be careful
and we left laughing our heads off
before we know it
the boys were running across the road in the rain
the girls must hate us but sisi and i couldnt be bothered
we were bored

sigh
it sucks
when you live on the happiness of the ppl around you
like a battery

ystd sux and i thought today would be better
its half bad than expected

tuition as usual ystd
stupid matter shldnt had went further on

what kind of monster does this
you use to be my best partner
now you'r nothing but the same like the rest

i know in your eyes
im a boy, i'm forever one
but do you have to put that vision of yours
in everybody else's eyes

yea i may seem boyish in the past
but im a girl
im a girl in the past, a girl now
and i'll always be a girl
because god made me a girl

im even girl-lier now than ever
i dont care and dont bother
how you'r gonna think of me
but i felt rly hurt
with those words of yours

i broke down
and for a moment almost gave up
but i shall not
let you allow myself to be brought down

sometimes i regret bringing sisi to you

just when everything is getting back on track
something is bound to always come in between
damn

i cant wait for N lvls to end
i need the spree for everything
i feel like having what i quit
the party
31 okotober

its so hard to smile this days
but i'll do my best no matter what

you must be bored reading till here
or you just dont like me and wanna know
how the girl you dont like is leading her life
but whatever
i hope your day be better on the next day always

2009-09-13T22:56:00.004+08:00

this morning
woke up at 6 to write love letters
for the boys who are going ns
they were late but it was alright
we fooled around talked so much
was so touched when they said how much fun i gave them
i'll miss them
doubt they will meet when they book out but still
thanks for being there to every single one of you
when i lost the clique
thanks for being there rehlly

came home studied 3 hrs
home alone
considered to go wander on my own
but didnt and i had food bought for me

tonight's quite a night
i dumped a fr
an ungrateful one

im gonna study my heart out for a month

i dont think i can do it
but i must

the illusion
if i pass the clique will be there
it will come through right
god, i miss them
chester domic peiling hunwei matthew
maybe lex alil
wonder hows he now

okay i can do it
i have to

sigh

the silence isnt so bad
till i looked at my hands and feel sad

2009-09-13T00:46:00.003+08:00

and one thing which i almost forgot
everytime you appear unexpectedly
not to bring joy but the opposite

what am i to you

my face is not your street directory
my mind is not your 24 hrs singtel operator
and lastly
my heart is not for you to play

go away
stop the unexpected moves

i dont hate you
i hate me for getting affected
im annoyed when i shldnt be

you'r only human
but im the alien here

2009-09-13T00:32:00.004+08:00

today was insane
went to find sisi at tiong first
drummed and trained to town
went wisma to buy my cardis
ate our usual korea food at taka
went kino but no new comics
so walked over to far east

we'r like some spoilt brats
we kept wanting to take cab
cuz our heels were killing us

bought new wedges and shirt
badbadbad
we buy things without looking at prices
the shirt event was retarded
walked in store flipped around
took the shirt and paid
left for cine
but movie no more seats
:(

walked over to central shopped about
sat outside and people watched
bused to plaza sing even though its a stop away
bought eye mask face mask
went arcade
took pictures

came home early
but its alright
8 hrs of shopping in heels is fine too
missing out chunkfest was bad but
everything's worth for
a trip out with sisi

my legs are aching
breakfast with the boys tmr
:S

im becoming so girly and vain
if i were to look back at the old me
i wouldnt know who that girl is
dresses heels and every other girly stuff

:l
empty
empty
empty

what if the horror comes through

nvm you can do it
go michie :l

2009-09-12T12:00:00.004+08:00

went tiong for breakfast and grocery shopping
went to sweet talk stupid auntie cut my queue
i went to rawr at her son then walked off
bought coke instead

and guess who i saw
the most unexpected person ever
SAMUEL LEEEEE
i forgot everything and ran straight to hug him
and weijie also omg
cuz of ns they shaved their heads
:( poor boys they had such nice hair styles in the past
idiot samuel after the fight he go MIA
hmm outing with them soon :D

bought markers and pens

im going out with sisi soon
okay i cant wait

2009-09-11T23:41:00.002+08:00

the boys are clubbing away
mummy took my ID :S
so much for considering to go

but nvm breakfast on sunday
usual hideouts at greatworld
last outing with them

stupid you
make my sisi annoyed
are we humans or aliens
sisi and i cant blend in

shopping + movies+ iscream+ drumming tmr
dresses and heels
here comes the girly routines again
:S

hey bestfr
i dont know which home you'r in now
but i miss you
like 1113487095674586 X
are you missing me too?
chestertan

boysarewhatever

2009-09-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

if i have no insonmia
i'll sleep my life away

singtel operators are 24 hrs
next time
you get your entertainment from them

2009-09-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

dinner before tuition
saw bernardette and his girlfr, jeanette
she's prettaye and nice
and she liked the bag i was carrying

went tuition
as usual updates with tescelyn
talked to grace and all

sisi called on the way home
went to get iscream with pa

he texted me
i was very surprised
as usual he's hot and cold
he comes and go

im annoyed with myself
for allowing myself to get affected
damn me

2009-09-10T12:18:00.004+08:00

argh lack of sleep
sisi only went to bed at 2 plus
i couldnt still
ended up reading comics

went to slp at 5
woke up at 8 by the freaking construction
make the whole building shake like earthquake
and roy preparing to go for camp

bernardette called for prata
walked over to cyrus half awake to call him out
he ate i drank
was super tired

went to his fr hse
disturb them sleeping
clean up the dumpster
ended up i caught an hour's nap

came home mins ago
shld i study
or go watch G force the hammy movie

damn there's tuition tonight
tmr last outing with the boys
before they'r all sent away
for a compulsory thing in singapore for being 18

shld i go shopping before tuition
shld i even go

fourskin, i need you

2009-09-09T23:34:00.004+08:00

english papers today
i screwed my letter writing
awesome.

a friend lied
without a good reason
and i found out
but im keeping silent

went island creamery with sisi
cookies and cream iscream
sat there laughing and hiding from bees

came home
long talk with mummy
hmm iloveyou
dont worry bout roy too much :(

was on the phone with sisi majority of the time
she refuse to let me go
without having a thing to do i just stayed on the line

till pa came to ask me go skate
we ended up walking to greatworld
slacked and ate there
walked back to petrol station
talked alot as usual
father daughter time
pa iloveyou and i promise i'll do my best

sisi just let me off the line mins ago
she's in a rainbow place
while my vision's blocked by the grey haze

im feeling empty
i dont feel like doing anything
im having insonmia

its so tiring to chase after a person
i did it a year ago
now im rusty
and im never doing it again anymore
i need no further disappointment

and im disappointed at her
everyone trust her and goes to her
so why lie to me
and even about smth stupid

and you, you better feel lucky
im allowing you to be frs with sisi
but i know you'r not grateful
and im leaving it
its your own time own actions

when frs let you down
but you try to turn the day around
it still doesnt flip
so you'll only end up cracking

i just gotta live through the horror

simple huh
but its easier said than done

2009-09-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

i think i've let my parents down
my brudder is changing for the worst
and my parents are speaking to me bout him
what can i do
what havent i not do
i tried many times and it could be just a matter of time
before his fist comes down hard on my face

my exams arent reaching the standards
everything seems to be going out of track
im praying more to god these days
im trying to be happy
but when it all comes down hard
its tough

big girls don't cry

2009-09-07T20:49:00.003+08:00

argh chinese paper 2 :l
paper one was awesome

went SMU with monsie and kyle
andi went to meet her boyfr
monsie's frs came
Tizzz came:D
haha she changed her hair

didnt study much
was dreaming about
monsie used my phone to text bracesboy
in turn of more texts from him
and she called him -.-
leonard called right after that
he asked me to go find them
but i musnt be seen in my polkadots
:(

dreamed somemore
then decided i shld go home
i looked like a freak on the bus
i was frowning the whole journey

arghhh damn MICHIE
wake upppp
think of the outcome
nothing good's gonna come out of it
so get it over and done with
and get back to before!!!

rehlly what are you
i dont know man
mister hot and cold

2009-09-06T15:26:00.005+08:00

i miss the old times
all the late night rendezvous

N lvl first paper's tmr
how fast time flies

i love the weather now
gives me a chance to wear my hoodies

i think those from the past
especially some of them
is spiraling down
yuck.

he's hot and then cold
and then now
i dont know
:l

maybe
i will stop the chase
maybe not

love's a maze

2009-09-06T00:18:00.003+08:00

you'r like a maths question
but yet the paper to come is SS

if i stop being lazy and run
will you be at the end

2009-09-05T23:26:00.003+08:00

this is insane
this is rehlly bad
i talked to him ystd
and found out
GRACE told him EVEYRTHING
yes thats what he said, everything
and he refuses to tell

arghh just how much did she tell him!
i felt so embrassed retarded and all
i had to hide under my covers
and conquer my insonmia all the way till 3

damn! i never expected her to go tell
arghhhhhhh

okay anw i studied SS the whole day
went over to beth hse for dinner
macs delivery and i told her what happen
she couldnt stop laughing
and i just squirmed in her bed
till she told me my cheeks are red
i hate to be fair man
if im tan no one will tell im blushing :S

was being annoying i kept complaining to her
and her brudder is so idiotic
he kept playing the pitbull song rehlly loud
and like ate the mega burger in front of me
in a totally turn off appetite manner

okay
he's just hmm like a maths question
hot and cold
idk :l

tonight's complete
everyone's asleep

2009-09-05T00:45:00.002+08:00

today was awesome
school was okay
i studied all the way

bernardette called ^^
thought got job for me again
but instead he wanted to meet at liang court for dinner
and i was told to wear smth girly cuz his frs going

and so i wore my dress
and i bought 2 shirts:D
his frs are as idiotic as them
and i told him bout the
Brrrrr.......boy

haha he tell me not to indulge too deep
and he believes i know the limits
haha awesome bud i'll keep those in mind

andand i tried my luck once more
its progressing 5% more i think

studying tmr

apple juice and red M&Ms

im grinning like some mad idiot now

2009-09-03T18:55:00.003+08:00

school was quick today
maybe cuz i did my work productively
shocking's not the right word

met up with les and leon for lunch
more like i watched them eat LJS
craving for it but im on a monster diet

tuition in awhile soon

andand i can't stop my mind
from replaying that killer smile of his
im not trying my luck
what a pity
he was everything i wanted in a guy

oh well studies is priority now
pity me if you must
and cherish your boyfr if he has brraces(:

bye

2009-09-02T22:58:00.004+08:00

the previous post was a joke
amazing how a short while of time
can make your emotions haywire
it isnt the first time i felt it anyway
the wave just rolled over me
like a tide on the beach

oh well
its been a year since i felt like how i did
and only you can feel it in your own world

im not going to try my luck
because there's no progress

back to before
study exercise wander

an invitation to a hardcore alcohol chalet
how tempting
but im rejecting it

an honest answer
is like
a kiss on the lips

his killer smile
braces = bonus

2009-09-02T20:36:00.003+08:00

i flipped a coin
and the answer was to try my luck
but i refuse to wallow in my previous footsteps
i want to study firsthand
so my boy with that killer smile
will you wait for me

2009-09-01T22:50:00.001+08:00

almost forgot

Happy Teacher's Day!

2009-09-01T22:38:00.003+08:00

i didnt go kino
cuz im going tmr with beth
went to meet leslie just now
the boys suggested to drink
and i said no thanks

shocked them

well i feel like stopping
its not a good thing being branded hardcorex
and holy beth talked sense in me
god wouldnt like it too
so i'll have my limits

cant believe Ns is next week
:OOO
and im rehlly not ready for it

but i promise to work even harder

pjs on rainy day

monster dieting and workouts

2009-09-01T16:23:00.003+08:00

some pictures of ystd
edited version

last group shot

me and the girls at LJS

2009-09-01T16:08:00.004+08:00

for yesterday
the word used would be insane
waited for booncong and wanhim outside queenstown
bused to greatworld
met kenneth all etc there in macs
leonard came over with his frs
surprised that they all seemed so SCENE
and i saw one with brrrraces :D kewt
gordon and issac came over after that
jiapei and peiqi joined us

helped the boys to go disturb some idiot from leonard sch
went over to rv finally
followed by a bigger group
waited outside slacked
then ran into school
but kena chased down to canteen
the boys ate cuz canteen food cheap
ms ng came, camwhored catch up etc
then kena chased out again but camwhored

everyone sorta all left tgt
gabriel chan never come
gordon booncong ziqi shanice xinyi janice and me
went over tiong to slack
went LJS eldrid came to join us
but the girls going off so we went arcade
drummed and saw issac ivan
but saw the countdown night ivan in arcade also
took a picture with the actor in fighting spiders
then i went off to meet les

the boys wanna go club
but i figured im not rehlly the kind so i went home
but roy brought kendrick etc home
so ended up we went cyrus
1 match of L4D
then the rest dota :(
but i was so hyped i kept hopping about

but the energy drained out on the way home
morning didnt follow to cyrus
too tired already

today's a rainy day
woke up to an empty house
lazed around and revised alil of SS
ystd's happenings kept replaying in my mind

badbadbad
shld i snap out of it
or try my luck

going kinokuniya later
gotta get new comics and pens
shouldnt be a problem
to have a third trip out on my own
yea i can do it(:

2009-08-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

im dead
i rehlly have alot to blog about
but i lost the hyperness already

i was so hyped just now
i kept wanting to scream
but it all drained out in a moment
like its a sign from god

that i shld snap out of it

maybe i shld go fight my insonmia soon
and blog bout all the happenings today, tmr

2009-08-31T20:28:00.002+08:00

omg

i wanna scream

okay im in lan now shall update

if im even going home later

2009-08-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

it poured today
i woke up to the sound of it
went tiong to get my pens and paper
zapple balloons and candy for tmr's party

stayed home after that
beth called to meet up but i was lazy
read my comics in my bed all day

had dinner at river valley
retarded me went to sit facing cyrus
saw jerome and his fr
thought they couldnt see me cuz its dark
but those idiots waved
and stupid me didnt bring my phone
couldnt text them to tell them not to call my name
if not mummy sure nag
cuz in her eyes almost all my frs she think is bad influence
being idiots, they screamed my name

mummy was pissed eventually
so i was good and didnt go over to say hi

sigh i saw too much a sight to witness
its silly to even want to be forward looking
all bout luck fate and destiny

tmr returning to RV
last time to gather tgt
becuz of my shit sch now
my only happy memories of sch
happened only in RV

2009-08-29T23:21:00.003+08:00

supposingly an awesome day
turned out
as a bad day

went to meet monsie and nutster
went to get balloon
but my black balloon flew off
saw ian on the way to PS

drummed but failed
afterall i havent played for so long
didnt buy my colour pencils
had a krazy time in the supermarket
which was the only hightlight of the day

went back wisma
nurul and monsie quarrelled

skated abit

then monsie had to go
so i bought a burger and ate on my own
second time and i survived
sure there be ppl thinking im insane
but im doing smth not everybody will do
eating alone is not a crime

with a heavy heart
i skated all the way back to PS on my own
got my starbux
sat in the middle for awhile
then bused home

reached home at 8 plus
kewl huh
saturday night so early go home

felt rehlly rehlly sad
i thought i might feel happy again today
but haiz nevermind
its alright i'll be okay
i can do it

2009-08-29T11:41:00.004+08:00

a sudden urge to blog
beth told me she got me a dress
similar to the one i wanted so badly
the one i eyed on a year ago

iloveyouuuuu bethany goh :)

okay im gonna be late
though i live the nearest to town

ways to flirt
boys repeats them all

state of shock

2009-08-29T10:23:00.003+08:00

woke up at 8
breakfast with pa
stall auntie kept talking bout me and roy

"woah, you can retire alr, daughter big already"
"she marry off you can live life good alr"
"who you love more, your papa or mummy?"
"sure got boyfr one hor?"

whole lotsa bullshit questions thrown at me
im like -.- i just wanna eat
lols me marry now= walking the many examples's footsteps
pregnant at 16 marry at 18 divorce by 21
and i love both my parents equally

her last action that freaked me
pinching my cheeks
wtf man

cant wait to skate later
surely deprove after so long never skate on the board

alot of ppl going baybeats

another one more falling in love
andi= processing
rini=processing
monsie=married
feb=falling
me=married
to the swing in the park

okay im off to watch WGM
bye

2009-08-28T23:36:00.003+08:00

sup today was kewl
went home straight after school
perfect nerd

went to les's place to meet the boys
lunch at subway
went henderson they played soccer
i watched with leon
but i ended up smacking mosquitos

most importantly i had my STARBUX
i missed town to get the shorts
so probably getting tmr

im SKATING tmr
best damn thing ever
its been awhile since i looked forward to weekends
monsie cass me and feb

i'll be looking forward to monday too

okay im rehlly tired
bye

2009-08-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

if you are feeling down
and you need a joke
tell me
i'll show you my exam scripts

physics teacher
encouraged everyone except me
im a pure disappointment
i almost felt like crying
8 marks to pass
but lost to careless mistakes

maths fail
as usual, very much expected
though i improved

english PASSED
failed by 1 mark previous exam
this time pass by at least 3 marks

geog improved but flunk
ss flunk

chemistry was a joke
every symbol seems alien enough

chinese i failed
yeh shocked?
i got A for previous paper
cuz i didnt finish filling in the words for compo

i didnt study much
no one to blame
but i didnt give up
at least thats a good start

went vivo with andi today
got my top from forever 21
cuz topshop got new stocks
the one i wanted not there anymore

was on the way home
when kaz called
popped by leslie's place
taught leon chinese while kaz settle stuff with les
i made the girl cry
for saying those mean things to me the other day

i need to trim my bangs

shld i or shld i not
my eyes are set on that shorts in town

okay my life isnt that bad today
im getting quite used to real independence

i shall hit town tmr
get starbux and shop about
and im sure
i'm able to do it
on my own

pjs on rainy nights

2009-08-26T22:53:00.004+08:00

my day's not bad today
yesterday sucked
i finally cried everything out
thanks ah chek for being there again

flunk ss and geog of course
im flunking all subjects anw
yea loser

the thing that brightened up my dead day
was the call from kaz
i know its bitchy to laugh at it
but i couldnt help laughing to it

this weekend's gonna be fun
im suppose to stop drinking slowly
but its been ages before i got any invites
and this one is to a chalet
a hardcore one
how tempting

hitting topshop with feb on friday
i need starbux

vodka can wait

2009-08-25T23:03:00.004+08:00

I felt the fear of being alone
the very last time when my heart broken into 2
but without know why this time
im experiencing it again
and its coming down hard on me

Its like a hiccup thats not coming out
stuck in between my countless thoughts
i cant even listen to any songs
without having an urge to break down

whats going on with my brain
come out and attack me face-to-face
dont be a coward to tackle my soul
cuz my heart can't withstand another earthquake

im scared, angry, annoyed, sad and feeling so much more
its a frustration thats leading to insanity
save me, kill me, help me
maybe either one is the solution of the bomb in me

my frs are failing me, i might fail them in return
my results are all flunked
the most important subject which is life, i got F9

i think if i didnt meet God,
i would have flown down from the 11th floor

and if you are kind enough to offer me
just one sip of vodka
as a reward for controlling my thirst for quite awhile
i'll do my best to offer you a smile

its a virus worse than H1N1
its affecting quite a number of people
the virus that corks your life stupid
and leaves you helpless with the all the shiat happening around

dropping diamonds

2009-08-24T19:55:00.002+08:00

not rehlly a die hard fan
just think he's rehlly kewt

2009-08-24T19:49:00.003+08:00

couldnt stand the temptation
of watching the ending part of WGM
HYUNJOONG and HWANGBO

sch was sick today
im like a toilet bowl
tolerating all the shiat

i fell aslp for awhile just now
and i dreamt bout him from the past
i mumbled bout missing him
its not like i have anyone to tell that to
maybe i miss the times not him

arghhhhhh

HYUNJOONG
*grins

i can do it

2009-08-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

this weekend
i've been pretty much on my own
my phone's quite dead
not much difference whether its on or not

hmm im wearing my pjs
hiding at home watching korean dramas
almost the whole day

yeah i doubt i be using com everyday
during the weekdays
okay

erm yeah thats it
funny isnt it
i usually blog for my own rants
but its like im telling myself now
you dont have anyone to leave matters to
so yeah

gonna study
jog, skate and swim
books can be my new clique

chester, domic, peiling, mathew, hunwei
i miss them

its okay
i can do it

2009-08-22T13:24:00.004+08:00

hi its saturday today
i just finished work
which was cleaning up the shit dumpster
from bernardette's left over party
50 bux ^^
and a mouth of vodka snapple
easily done in 1 hours time
but he helped also

and so its saturday
i dont have anywhere to go
im staying home
yea thats what losers do

so im gonna stand at my window
and look at the world thats so happening out there
without me

im not hanging out with kaz and co anymore
stuff went overboard

and i miss the clique
cuz i know if they'r still around
i wouldnt be alone this very minute

living through the horror

and i think im ready
to start

refreshed.

2009-08-21T22:53:00.003+08:00

dropping diamonds

2009-08-21T22:34:00.003+08:00

bought a wristband and necklace
went to meet leo
he was in his sch uniform
movie started at 6
so we sat at kfc since 4 plus

watched orphan
was rehlly freaked out at some parts
went macs for dinner
something stupid happened
then he went off while i waited for pa to fetch me
but kaz dropped by before that

didnt say much
told them to go away

i think going out with leo's rehlly diff
i get to laugh alot

okay im being emotional again
i shld stop thinking that much

staying home to rest tmr
my feet hurts
and i dont have anyone to go out with
guess what
its saturday tmr
great.

2009-08-21T11:33:00.003+08:00

hie
im going shopping with my sch girlfrs
cuz there's no school today

and my bloody school
took away our exam marking day
which means no extra holidays

and i had breakfast with bernardette this morning
he was around tiong area
we went to the market place
the place we use to go last time
when samuel domic all the rest hang out for meals
i miss them
he does too

haha and i updated him bout my life
he was so annoyed when i came to the leslie part
and he gave me a job again
help him out at his workplace tmr
2 hrs 50 bux
and i told him i going shopping later
give me my salary first
wahaha and he gave so tmr must report early for work
oh and he stopped smoking now
for a girl he likes
sweet.

i need new tops
shoes and bottoms

dressed like a girl
for my girls

meeting leo after that
but he got no phone
and he better dont be late

2009-08-20T22:54:00.005+08:00

im super annoyed now
i shall not use the F word
though i feel like screaming it

im so freaking sick of it all
im sick of keeping up your moodswings
you'r a girl
im a girl too
be more understanding can

and you
whats your freaking problem
havent we made things clear
so what isit you want now
my sympathy or my concern

just now marsion told me
boys are fucking retards
falling in love is stupid

which part of you dont understand
i dont find interest in every single one
and i doubt we can ever be as close as then
you made the mistake
you face it

2009-08-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

with nowhere to go just now
i ended up in les's hse
lil leon called
he was scared outta his lil wits
for being alone at home

i went over to acc him do his hw
then brought him to kfc for dinner
poor kiddo
being left alone becuz of some irresposible jerk
who rather go out with another girl
and forget he has a living human lil brudder at home

went for tuition
talked with tes as usual
darren went to fetch her
how sweet

shopping with the girls tmr
meeting leo after that
wanna meet andros brudder
maybe mason and lahvin coming

its raining

2009-08-20T16:32:00.003+08:00

prelims ended
may the results die on the way

beth and gab quarrelled
so no shopping with them
went serene with monsie andi and feb
gossip time
dino came then we left

it feels like p6
i end my exams and i go home
with nowhere to go

kaz is working
so no reliance on the boys

i feel like going out
debating
on my own
or
alone
whatever the outcome is still alone

watching orphan with leo tmr

fuck it okay
totally.
just go away

you had your decision
i made my stand
we're done
we're Fornever

why dont you get it
if i cant fucking come out of the horror
i wouldnt be able to go with anyone

2009-08-19T20:48:00.003+08:00

flunk the papers today
as usual
went serene with andi and rini
went for the sake of andi
:)

had dinner with the boys
les brought shermaine
whatever her name is spelt

i wouldnt be a threat to you
take him all you want
we are rehlly good friends
just not couple material tgt

and you, if you decide your mind
shouldnt you stay fixed
why bother

tmr last paper
going shopping with beth and gab
okay bye

fourskin, im coming

2009-08-18T20:41:00.003+08:00

bitching is happening
between the school clique
one phrase.
girlfriends dont go after each other's guy

i dont even know what keeps me alive and kicking now
numb before injection

oh i didnt bomb my bills this month
and i got scolded for it
whats the point
of living up to my words now
before and after, still the same
unfortunately im not a son

this period of my life sux
feeling helpless and lost in my own world

seriously i must be thinking too much
it cant be real

2 more days of papers
and im gonna set lose

been feeling grumpy these days
cracked once or twice
thirst of temptations

pathetic

2009-08-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

pa lost his wallet
damn it

haiz i dont know what im doing
dont know what im thinking
dont know what im talking about

what isit you want
stop it and tell me

half a bot of breezer
makes no difference

2009-08-16T17:55:00.002+08:00

i love watching Georgia rule
went over to bud's hse in the morning
and we caught it on HBO

its rehlly tough keeping it
eric's right
i dont know how long i can take it

anw i ate half a mac spicy
feels rehlly full and im feeling fat alr

mummy just came home with pa
pa lost his wallet
lotsa cash and impt cards in the wallet
shit man

no wonder
i've this weird feeling the whole day when they were gone
okay lets hope some kind soul will return it
becuz pa is speeding down to serangoon now
his IC in the wallet:(
and now from town travel there sure jam
cuz its peak hour

god, pls let him find it

black bangs

2009-08-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

okayxz
im rehlly bored
cramps sux cuz im having them

chestertan
where are you man
bestfr, im missing you badly

rmb how you always attempt to murder me
by giving me coke when im having cramps

imissyou

2009-08-16T00:51:00.000+08:00

hello gabblur, i know you'r waiting to read this
hahahhahah
actually you got punked, beth lied to you
too bad who ask you lie to her first

anw had dinner with them just now
then went to buy shampoo
haha me and beth stood there smelling each type
for so long gab got pissed

then i went to les hse to find the boys
and we played guitar hero tagteam
my teammate of course is les
and we won kaz and simon
yay^^V plus we never cheat

and kaz being a sore loser
said smth mean
which resulted in me kicking him

okay i had fun after studying all day
though my fingers almost broke pressing the buttons

beth showed me this new blog site
but its too girly for me
blogger fits me still

haha i did something rehlly naughty just now
but it got me and beth a breezer each
anw just to inform whoever's reading
i dont smoke though i tried

okay bye

2009-08-15T14:11:00.000+08:00

im staying home to study
and today's saturday
unbelievable

might be meeting les and the boys tonight
shopping with mummy cancelled :S

yeah she's smart what not like me need to study
why bother asking me cuz ew i'll not go
i dont go to guys outside and just talk to them randomly
and start following them to places 5 mins after that
im not a whore
and im sorry i wouldnt wear tubes if i know i have no assets
hope you have a great time knowing more guys
since everyone in clique advised you oreadi
all the best to you
i dont need a fr this desperate

that girl my friend
she used to be daddy's girl
but she flew too high
and now she's full of bird shit

i wanna cut my hair again

2009-08-15T00:23:00.001+08:00

:SSS
gastric now
and leo is making me laugh
even more pain

someone stole his phone
and the person better return
cuz he's getting scarier any min
for thinking how to torture the stealer

i didnt study
today's wasted

shopping tmr with mummy

chalet cancelled
phew i've been complaining in sch today
that i wanna crash the chalet

and to the supposedly chalet host:
Happy Birthday NICO :D

soon kay we go out celebrate

eating now will be fattening
ice water will doooo

2009-08-14T18:56:00.000+08:00

last night was a flop
my alarm didnt ring at 3 am
i didnt finish studying my ss

ss is 1/2 screwed
english paper 1 is fully screwed
paper 2 was okay

and i was so desperate to pack up
grab all my books in the class
and get out without even looking back
i lost my water bot in a mins time

and im rehlly touched with some ppl
like kaz he told me be a short and smart girl :S thanks
and teckkian said he would bring me to a movie
but im so not gonna let him pay for me again
nico gave me luck
clemmm gave me all his luck
and da ge encouraged me
bethany mimicked me "live through the horror"

im so lucky to have these ppl
and it was raining on my way home

i felt so good that im going home to study

the clique lives in my heart still

oh
my hair is braided now for sch
not rehlly neat but
school geek enough

bye

2009-08-13T21:43:00.001+08:00

haha ystd was krazy
i stayed for physics one to one
and ms he gave me a cherry^^
and when i slide my phone while walking ouuta sch
i saw a text from clement
i could had screamed from space
:D
so happy to have my msnboy back

and i had lunch with les
haha funny leon kept wanting to tag along
but he had hw so we refused to let him come
but in the end les got him shaker fries

okay today was :S
cuz tmr is prelims
and i just finished my coursework B

im studying only 1 day before prelims
smart or what

okay thats totally stupid
but yeah
some luck please

im staying up to study

okay
bye

2009-08-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

im in school now

i made my schbestfr pissed:(

and i feel like crying

cuz no matter how much i prayed

i think they are going to take clem away

another fr gone

like i have many left

other than sch clique, kaz and the boys

i dont have anyone else alr

2009-08-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

me and andi

me and selina

nicest pictures
the rest all veh ugly
and i look fat in others too

damn i need to slim down somemore

2009-08-11T22:58:00.001+08:00

hey
today aft sch went macs
with rini, feb, shisheng and LC
lols missed that idiot alot man
old time buddy
still the same afterall

managed to laugh while they were around
bused back etc
dinner with kaz and the boys
they quarreled so i left

homework not done
not enough revision
prelims= flunked 4 sure

sometimes it comes to a period of time
where you just stop
and give up on everything around you
yet you find yourself pulling through still

i might lose another fr tmr
he's a rehlly nice fr
he's my favourite boy online
and he bought me ice cream before
we havent went out as planned
god, don't taking anyone else away again please
sigh, im gonna miss you
but i'll pray for you
my chao ah chek clement

2009-08-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

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